Disclaimer: This is more of a personal post than some others, but bear with me. We don’t have to always have it together.

There’s something sitting very heavy on my chest and I’m having a really hard time figuring out what it is. 

I’m starting to feel very claustrophobic in Austin and in my apartment and in my daily routine. It’s not that I feel suffocated, but it’s like I can’t escape. 
I keep reminding myself that I’ll be in Mexico for a whole month this summer, essentially on my own, but even that doesn’t feel like enough.
I want to throw off the chains and adventure with reckless abandon. I want to go places that I’ve never been and meet new people and experience things that I can’t even imagine yet. 
But right now, I have responsibilities. I’m not having to fight off the urge to shuck those important things to the side, I just wish I had more room for other things. And I know I can make room, but I don’t want wiggle space, I want a whole freaking house.
I want to drive with the windows down and stop when I want and go where I want. I want to run through a field of sunflowers. I want to jump off a giant rock into a freezing cold lake. I want to hug people and shake them and jump on them out of happiness.
Does any of that make sense?
I want to go go go and do do do.
I want someone to adventure with me because right now I feel stuck.
If you have any advice, I’d love to hear it. I’m a firm believer that when you feel like you need to do something then you should just DO but right now I’m all in a funk.
“Every dreamer knows that it is entirely possible to be homesick for a place you’ve never been to, perhaps more homesick than for familiar ground.”

One thought on “claustrophobic.

  1. Feeling claustrophobic in college is normal! It’s the ripe age for adventuring yet we have responsibilities that can’t be avoided. You’ll make it through — make each day of your life an adventure! Real life is happening all around you.

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