‘up’ moments

Good afternoon, I hope you’re having a beautiful, wonderful Sunday. It’s gorgeous here. Sunny, breezy, warm, clear skies. I love these kinds of days. I just finished up some school work that needed to get done before tomorrow and after I finish typing this up I may go do some yoga outside. I wanted to make an effort to post more often on here, not because I felt like I had an audience to appease (lol), but because it’s a self-care/coping skill for me.

I know many people love to journal privately, but I don’t mind journaling publicly. If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’ve seen the ups and downs of my life and that’s something I don’t want to cover up. COVID-19 times are full of so many ups and downs, too. Just yesterday while walking with Patrick I explained to him that the fear of not getting a job and moving to DC and being in financial distress made me feel like I was going to have a panic attack.

Some moments I feel confident and positive and ready to charge straight ahead. Others? Not so much. That being said, I prefer the ‘up’ moments. I try to let the emotions and sensations that accompany the better moments stick around in my memory and experience longer than those that accompany the scarier moments.

I’ve also made an attempt to document my life more in photos. Sometimes I go weeks without taking a single photo, which stinks! I like being able to look back and see what I was up to and what I was interested in. I made the effort this week to snap photos of the stuff that held me in ‘up’ moments, pulled me out of lower moments, and the things I just love. Here they are! 🙂

Sitting outside with Patrick in the AM drinking coffee and water and talking about life and politics and whatever comes to mind. He became Dr. Patrick this week, so there were celebrations! Without school to focus on 98% of the time, we’ve been able to hang out and talk more which I love. We also started doing daily PSAs on our Instagrams. We alternate who chooses the topics each day. It’s fun and it gets us outside in the morning and thinking about something silly or serious.

I stumbled across this quote on a blog and loved it. I want to appreciate normal days more, even while they feel so not normal. I’ll try right now: outside the window at this desk I see my tomato plant swaying in the breeze and the dryness of the dirt. I can imagine how it feels to put my hands on the warm soil and can imagine the smell of the rosemary on my fingers when I harvest some to make bread.

I love the flowers that grow on weeds – haha! I love how I can find them no matter where I look. I snapped this photo while on a walk the other day listening to podcasts. They’re growing on a pretty steep hill not far from my house in a field that I want to lay down in. I enjoy flowers that grow in strange places. They’re not always the prettiest, but I feel lucky to stumble upon their pops of color.

The other morning Patrick and I were hanging around in the bedroom when I remembered this book of quotes on the bookshelf. I flipped through it and read each one. This one popped out at me. I had dog-earred the quotes I liked years ago when I read through the book for the first time and it was so interesting to see how my preferences changed.

I really love this one, though, because it is how I hope to live my life.

Okay, this one I stumbled across on Instagram. I love these little jams. They’re so cute and so tasty! When I saw that they were selling these advent calendar Mother’s Day gifts, I was so… tickled! That’s the best word I can find to describe what I felt! They’re so mini and adorable and quaint.

For an early birthday present, Patrick bought me a digital subscription to The Economist. I’ve enjoyed their Morning Espresso Briefings a lot. Plus, there’s normally a great quote at the end of the slides that gets me thinking.

I came across this post and the caption blew me away. Maybe we all ought to make a list of the wonderful experiences we’ve had. When I think back to some of my favorite moments in life, they’ve usually been the most unexpected, otherwise unspecial. There’s something sweet about the surprise enjoyment of an ordinary moment or experience.

I hope to look back to this time and somehow, someway categorize it as one of my favorite times in my life.

I made a whole post about this, but there’s something so marvelous about eating outside on a sunny, warm day. I feel like I’m sitting at the picnic table next to the pool at my childhood home. Eating to have the energy to continue swimming and playing and enjoying life.

And that’s all I have for you today. See you next week?



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