Sorry for the absence people!
Now, straight to the “ohhhhh.”
I now understand what stress is.
You see, I’ve had my future alllll planned out. Major in biomedical engineering, go to med school, become a doctor. OR, major in biomedical engineering, work in labs, go to graduate school, do research.
Sounds safe and smart and hard, right?
Well, here’s the thing. I don’t want to do that anymore. Granted, I’ve only been in class 2 weeks, but I can already tell that, in the long run, it won’t make me happy.
I enjoy working and interacting with people. I also enjoy working out, being healthy, learning how nutrition, and still helping the world. Add all those things up and what does that lead me to want to be? A dietitian and/or nutritionist with a focus in international nutrition.
When I tell people that, they say “well, will that get you a job?” or “does that pay well?” And in all honesty, I really don’t care.
Why would I want to major in something and waste time and money on it if it’s going to make me unhappy?
With a focus on international nutrition, I would be working on world hunger and malnutrition all over the world. I care about that. It excites me to think about getting to do that.
This year I will only take two BME specific courses, so I’m going to give it a year to make my decision. However, next semester, I am going to take Intro to Nutrition to get a feel for it.
I want to be happy with my life. And I know it’s just the beginning and I’ve got time, but I want to enjoy ALL of it. I don’t want to look back and think about how miserable I was freshman year, you know?
Those have been my thoughts lately. It’s hard to focus on infinite series, sulfhydryl groups, and kinetic molecular theory of gases in ideal conditions, when all I’m thinking about is how unhappy it makes me.
It’s all putting a weight on my shoulders and heart. Alas, I shall carry on.
With such a big decision to make and with the fear of making the wrong one, this gives me hope:
Have a good night!